Silence is Gold

Everyone will speak or shout loudly when they are angry with other people. Sometime they shouted directly in the crowded area. It happens to me too. When I made everyone dissapointed or angry, they would shout to me no matter where they were. It made me felt ashamed and it hurts me.Those experience made me become a person who choose not to speak when I felt really angry. Everytime I felt angry to other people who made me dissapointed, I choose not to speak or shouted in front of them. 

One day, I wanted to make a cake in my food stall. I made the cake in my food stall because my food stall has everything that I need. I prepared everything to make the cake. I did everything by myself. I made dough and baked them. At that time, there was no buyer so I made the cake enjoyably. Finnally, half of the cake finished. I gave those cake to the employee in the food stall to ask their opinion about my cake. If the cake wasn't not good I could make the better one with half of dough. Fortunateky, the cake was delicious.

When I wanted to make half of the dough, some buyers came to the food stall and my food stall became crowded. At that time, the food stall was too crowded. One by one buyers came to my food stall and I couldn't make the cake. I moved to my house to make the cake. I brought all the things I need to my house. I asked some help to one of the employee to bring liquid propane gas (LPG) into my kitchen because I couldn't bring it.

When I asked help to him, I thought he would help me because he didn't answer my request. When I arrived at my house and did something, the LPG still not in my kitchen. I went to the food stall again to find out the employee. Unfortunately, he was there, he just sat and watched me. I was really angry. I asked his help again. He rejected my request harshly. I was shock. I asked his help carefully and I didn't know why he shouted to me. If I could bring the LPG by myself, I wouldn't ask his help. I was really angry to him. I ran away to my house. I wanted to shout in front of him and I wanted to speak harshly because of my anger. I couldn't shout and speak harshly in front of him. All of words that I wanted to say couldn't be spoken. I didn't want to make him felt ashamed and I didn't want to hurt him. He was one of my mother's favorite employee. I didn't want to to make him resign from his work. I cried a lot in my room to release my anger. I threw everything in my room and stayed in my room until I felt calm. I didn't make half of the dough again because I felt tired and dejected. My mother made the cake by herself and gave it to me.

Even other people said speak your anger is the best way, I will not do that. I feel ashamed and hurt when other people shouted to me, so I will not make everyone feel like what I feel. When I feel dissapointed I will cry or throw something beside me. From this experience, I don't make cake in my food stall because my food stall always crowded and I don't want to angry with anyone in my food stall. Silence is gold.